Let us begin...

So I am going to be a Dad. I can't even begin to say how that makes me feel. I have helped create another life, another soul, another beating heart, another human being. It truly is amazing. I know, I know... not a big deal to some but I am one of the most introspective males on the planet and this is why I have decided to keep a sort of journal on the internet. It isn't as great as writing a book but somehow seems close to the same. It isn't hard to post something online but it is hard to sell someone on publishing your book. Truth be told, there probably won't even be many readers of my little blog but this feeling I have deep inside cannot go unpublished any longer. It is unlike anything I have ever felt before. It is the most consuming feeling of unconditional love I have ever felt. It is all I can think about. I love this kid so much and I have never even met her before. I can't concentrate at school, or at work, and even the most simple tasks at home are becoming harder and harder to complete; all because of this ever-so-encompassing thought of being a father. You see, I didn't have the greatest of all upbringings and I just want to be the best father I can be. I feel like we have waited long enough to bring another person into the world but I also know that I am going to want everything to be perfect for my little girl. I am going to be the most over-protective father ever and I hope she doesn't resent me for that. I don't know how other fathers are able to finally let go and are able to allow his little girl to grow up and leave the nest. I haven't even brought her into the world yet and I am already thinking of the day I have to let her go...Wow, SLOW down...OK.
The day is almost here and I am wishing, hoping, praying, or whatever works best, that EVERYTHING in this birth goes according to plan. I want this to be as painless as possible and I just can't wait. For some reason, my intuition says you will be an Easter baby, so I guess only time will tell.